so much for being 'friends'.
Congrats! You've officially made it to my black list. Not that you care maybe, but just thought I'ld let you know. I'ld hate to be in your thoughts, hate to hear your voice and see your face.
**
Thank god I have HK to cheer me up. All the other lovelies, see you when I get back ok! And if you want/ need something from Land of Shops & Food, just text me!
XOXO.
♥ there's not a place
that we cant reach
that we cant reach
write your name across the sky.
My dad just said I didn't know how to 'zhou yan'* cos I didn't buy him anything from Melb; all the brat got him was a hankerchief and he's over the moon! See how they spoil and encourage her? Tsk. Still, he's whisking me off to HK for the weekend, and this trip was a decision I had to make. Initially cos it was such a rush (I was told HK trip was this weekend) I didn't wanna go cos I had to break several engagements made long ago and I didn't wanna do that. Especially since Cel sis took leave 2 weeks ago just in anticipation of our Tues Sentosa trip, i didn't wanna disappoint her and waste her efforts. She was unmderstanding abt it and said we could meet further in the week but I really wanna see her! So after much thought and rejection of offer of HK trip twice, I gave in. Yes, okay, ya!! It's really not that hard imagining me not giving in to the HK Shopping Festival (!!!!!!), mango sago (major YUM) , dimsum and tun nai. All this, tomorrow. And I WILL GET MORE BLING I AM CRAZYINLOVE WITH BLING i tell you. I'm sure the people who have recently shopped with me would've realised that, and apparently so has my brato'asister - she got me some pretty cool gold accessories from HK. And for all this, I'm afraid I'll have to break my enagagements with Bry and Ah Da. And looks like i won't be able to attend a 21st either, quite sad cos I heart 21sts, but it was a choice I had to make! See you all when I get back on Tues okay? See I told y'all it was a short trip!!
Loves it The Yong Divas - This Time I Know It's For Real
♥ there's not a place
that we cant reach
that we cant reach
old friends.
Today was a honestly exhausting day. I guess Eric takes the cup for being a true-blue shopaholic man. On Tues he bought I swear, 300kgs of stuff from guess espirit a/x topman levi's, and it wasn't enough! That day we lugged all that around town, hence my feet is dying. Then today. he wanted to buy MORE because he had money left over and it would kill him not to spend everything. So we went to a/x ck at paragon after walking long dists from funan the it mall to suntec and from suntec back to funan. it was a killer walk! don't ask why we did it - he had to collect his specs from suntec and he was leaving today. on our way to suntec, we bumped into darren at the traffic junction of funan! how exciting! had a quick chat and he told Eric to "take care of (me in Melb) cos (I'm) a troublemaker". What!?!? old friends...haha. And then when we were buying tix for "Cars" (which i enjoyed much), I saw Huifang! Also so exciting lahhh! She's working in a shop at Cine and I guess she 'spotted' me so she came over to say hi. Nice :) Let's go MoS together lehhhh fang!
So much has happened (shopping shopping more shopping and eating) in the short period since I've been back but words just aren't enough to phrase my experiences. Sorry if anyone was looking for a detailed update of my hols! I leave you with pictures of our very crazy fun monday.
miss charpa and her many hp charms!
Black and white loving.
The more I look at this dress, the more I like it.
pei insisted I wear this to show my non-existant support for the Aussie soccerroos and it ended up looking like a pasar malam tee people wear to sleep hence the pose!
the tees are quite cute though - the animals have huge sunnies on them! pei's got a cool zebra.
What tourists!
♥ there's not a place
that we cant reach
that we cant reach
l.o.v.e.
Home. Hit me whenever, wherever. We'll make this "little-under-a-month" time work ;). I feel like a mega-star though I certainly don't feel close to a million bucks - everyone's just been asking me "how does it feel to be home?" and getting texts from everyone saying "welcome home/ back" was definitely cool - it put a smile on my face knowing how much I'm welcomed, and that distance doesn't really change anything. The reason I'm feeling a ickle crap is cos I'm overcaffinated from the flight - too much coke (at least 3 cans within 7hrs40mins) and tea. The wine also made its presence felt after landing - major headache. For those who wanna know, it feels surreal to be home. Like I woke up this morning in Melb where it's at least 10 degrees, and tonight I will fall asleep in a comfortably air-conditioned room cos it's 29degrees outside. The skin is starting to itch - not fun. Dinner @ Long Beach with the parents who seriously spoil me when it comes to food. Oh, and the first thing my mom said to me when she saw me (after a long 4 months) is, "My, you've grown fatter. Look at your chubby cheeks!" Seriously? You've got to be kidding me! But yes, on a random note: I Not Stupid 2 is very heartwarming (I cried..what the..!?!?), Date Movie seriously stupid, and Crash seriously good. It's serious but definitely one of the best movies I've seen this year; it's about racism in America and the plot just reflected what is really happening. Worth a watch if you have the time! Anyways, it's like 1.30AM Melb time..need sleep but apparently soccer is on. Maybe I should watch some TV to chill out, but yawn...
Loves it P!nk - You Make Me Sick
♥ there's not a place
that we cant reach
that we cant reach
never again.
Okay, I'm very, very tired. This weekend has been tootiring, albeit a good/ fulfilling one. Both days started earlyearly, and so will tomorrow. Actually I'm going to make this short cos I have approx 6hrs of sleep left. *yawn* But of course, all in the name of HOME! I went shopping (hence, I'm broke but no matter now) yesterday on Bridge Road and today in the city. Grand havest of at least 2 dresses, and I can't actually remember my exact purchases now..brain is tres tired. But yeah - today was suprefrenzy and then back home to clean/ pack and then it was off to an African restaurant on Bridge Road for Tom's bday. How fancy is that?! But the food was not that bad. Speaking of bdays, Ah Da I nearly forgot to pack your present (actually it's still lying there, I haven't packed it yet) cos it was looking all pretty in its paperbag haha. Okay need to dump everything into my luggages and then zZzzzzZZzZz. When oh when will I see 12-hr sleeps again?
Anyone know this mambo song?
"I'm going crazy just to let you know,
You'll be amazed how much I love you so,
When I get my hands on you I won't let you go;
This time I know it's for real."
I've been hearing the remake on radio and it making me all MAMBO-y. PEOPLE DON'T PANG SEH ME OKAY! THIS WED WE ARE FUCKING GOING MAMBO (UNLESS I SAY OTHERWISE). Can't wait, can't wait! If you're feeling my return, text me after 4pm tomorrow to welcome me. ;)
Much love.
Loves it The Young Divas - This Time I Know It's For Real
♥ there's not a place
that we cant reach
that we cant reach
how now, brown cow?
one can only speed read that fast...another 200-odd pages to go. i do not have enough time...seriously, i should have known better than to have wasted 4 days (Thurs - Mon) engaging in pleasurable nothingness. please people, keep me in your prayers because if i don't pass this exam, i might have to do supps, which means i have to come back possibly 2 weeks early. you do the math: 1 month - 2 weeks = 2 weeks left of holidays! no, no no...
Loves it PM text
♥ there's not a place
that we cant reach
that we cant reach
say its cos ure mine.
What, you've taken to calling me 'qt' now? Tackkkky!
ARGH. I don't know what my blog has become - an angst-filled hole or a boring lack of meaningful updates. I apologise for you have caught me at a bad time. I never realised that after nearly 14 years of schooling, I would be back at square one - racking my brains out in an attempt to 'understand' material for an exam. And like the past 14 years, don't tell me I have to resort to what has (miraculously) always worked for me: selective revision and praying hard. By hard, I mean fuckin' day-and-night, night-and-day hard. Ok, let's not jinx it now. But I'm almost too old, too jaded for this selective revision thing now; I was so nervous the night before my a level's geog exam because I literally studied the night before (believe it, or not) and got like an hour's sleep. I don't want to go through the cycle of panic-fatigue-stress again. It is too much for my old self to bear. Honestly, it does not feel good going into an exam knowing you did minimal (and very selective) studying (but of course it feels awesome when you realise the praying paid off and the questions were on stuff you actually read through! Ok, I've got to stop jinxing it.)
But yes, I've barely finished the first lect (or the 13th out of 24) after 'slogging' over it the past 5 hours. We just can't push some things... Yes, looking at it suffices to grant me a major headache. I mean literally. Yes yes, attention-deficit disorder (ACD) - what a nasty thing. Fuck this shit, I'm going to bed and when I wake up I'll just pray this isn't true, the exam isn't on Fri and I don't not know jack. But of course, I still want to be in reality where I jet home on Sun. Ahh, things are happening too fast when they shouldn't. What kind of an abstract reflection did I just embark on? I'm sorry, I know this shit I just typed out may sound horribly abstract or structurally incoherent, but that's what reading a text that spits out X new words in a X+2 sentence does to you.
Listen here, I cannot disappear
I've tried again and again, again and again.
[...]
You're always on my mind,
It's like this all the time...
Loves it Heater warming me up
♥ there's not a place
that we cant reach
that we cant reach
pleasedon'tsayyouresorry.
Now, while watching The Ellen DeGeneres Show, I blog. 12 - 1pm is generally my only break the whole day, whether or not I am really absorbing all that academic information. I am effin' stressed. I cannot take it! I still have a whole freaking textbook to read. What validity, reliability and all that psychological assessment jazz. ARGH. Only 20 mins left to destress:
Three schools I went to:
1. SGT
2. CJC
3. Melb Uni
Three things in my handbag:
1. Wallet
2. Mobile
3. iPod nano
Three things I do when I'm stressed:
1. Freak out
2. Whine
3. Daydream
Three places I go on a daily basis:
1. Uni?
2. Sonz' crib?
3. Safeway (read: Aussie supermarket)?
[NB: I hardly even go anywhere on a daily basis!]
Three favourite fruits:
1. MANGO!!
2. Lychees
3. Pears
Three names I go by:
1. Ena (duh)
2. Enzy
3. Eeee-nahhhhh
Three of my favourite food:
1. Chinese (Dim sum!)
2. Thai (Everything spicy!)
3. Jap (Katsu don!)
Three things Im wearing right now:
1. Pink/ black stripped fleece sweater
2. White long-sleeved top
3. PJ bottoms
Who is in the house with me?
No one; Michael Bolton's on TV serenating me though.
Who am I thinking of right now?
No one in particular; home in general.
Who did I last talk to on the phone?
Sugata.
Who did I sit with during my 5th period in class?
N.A.
Who was the last person I uttered love to?
Jacchoo?
Who do I wish I am with right now?
Anyone as long as we are having fun!
Who gets on my nerves most in school?
Uni's huge yo. But I'll tell you those retarded people making out on the lawns are effin' annoying.
Where is my phone?
On the dining table.
Where do I sleep?
In the room. On the bed, duh?
Where is the place I took a ride to?
Uhm. Brunswick Street, Fitzroy?
What was the last thing I ate?
Kong Guan biscuit (how ghetto is that!) + milk.
What colour shirt am I wearing now?
White.
What is the closest item to me that is blue?
A blue highlighter. Or the fucking textbook's blue font.
What do I like most about school?
Makes you smart. Check out hot guys. Hang out at Blue Zone and sip on hazelnut latte the whole day.
What is my favourite colour?
No suprises - PINK!, black, gold, white's growing on me too.
What do I wear most often, jeans or shorts?
Jeans! It's cold...
What was the last movie I watched?
Oh my god..can't even remember. Oh, "The Princess Diaries" cos it was on the other night.
When did I start school?
Last Feb.
When did I last go to the mall?
Last Fri.
When did I last burn something?
A month ago? I burnt a Krispy Kreme! CAN YOU BELIEVE I WASTED A K.K!!!! :(
Loves it Ellen DeGeneres Show
♥ there's not a place
that we cant reach
that we cant reach
明 天 见
If's its not meant to be, why not just let it go so we can still preserve the memories.
雨下了 又停了
The rain falls, but it stops.
淚流了 又乾了
Tears flow, but it dries up.
你走多久 多遠了 我還在這
How far and how long have you been travelling for? - I'm, still here.
你說的 你忘了
You said it, but you forgot (all about your promise).
可是我 還記得手心裡 緊握著 已不屬於我的親熱
And me? I still remember, and in my hands, I'm still holding to a love that's no longer mine.
愛怎會輸給了時間
How did Love lose to Time?
我的耳邊 再聽不見
I can no longer hear;
我以為永遠不會變 最習慣的明天見
I thought things would no longer change, we will always see each other the next day.
放手了 該回到原點
(Time to) let go, (Time to) go back to the beginning.
心會受傷 也能復原
The heart will break, but it will heal
我會學著自己走出從前 祝福明天
And I, will walk out of my past (eventually) and embrace the future.
Loves it Cyndi Wang - Ming Tian Jian
♥ there's not a place
that we cant reach
that we cant reach
my 'hood.
fuckin' ghetto.
my ears hurt. i need to study. argh. wanna blog but argh its dark. gotta meet tom in a bit too. ahh. blog when i gather my senses!
p.s. sorry charpalang, i was on the phone i cannot multitask! i will talk to u soon ;)
Loves it Jay Chou - Black Sweater
♥ there's not a place
that we cant reach
that we cant reach
null hypothesis testing.
Null hypothesis is the hypothesis of no difference; we propose no difference in the mental health of Ena a. before, and b. after, the exams.
Null Hypothesis = Ena's mental health is good.
In a series of tests that include transforming raw scores into z-scores, we will attempt to disprove (very easily, I assure you) the null hypothesis.
After all that calculation jazz, aha! there we have it - the null hypothesis is rejected, and hence, there is significant evidence that Ena's mental health is not good.
**Ladeeda. Because lecturer is repeating himself about null hypotheses.
one: what is the phone brand?
samsung
two: what are the last three digits of your mobile number?
in melb: 807; in sg: 187. [yes, both have 8s and 7s cos thats the date of my bday haha 07.08!!]
three: what does the second message in your inbox say?
it's from sonz! before she left :( pretty long actually - "hey babe thanks for everything this semester i wish you h1 all the way for your exams. i will miss you so much. i already miss you! peace out. this is baby sonia." AWWWW i miss you :(.
four: who's the first person who comes up under the letter m?
marie.
five: who's the last person you rang?
eric.
six: who was your last missed call from?
eric.
seven: who's the second person who comes up under d?
david.
eight: what does the last message in your inbox say?
last as in last recently or last last last? well the latter is from charpa and it says, "Heyyy girl! :) it's so gd to hear from ya! Juz wanna let ya know u're still so much in our life tho u're far away! Love ya!" i got this shortly after i left sg for melb. it's so sweet and i didn't realise i've had it for more than year now :)
nine: who comes up under j?
jac, jacopo (who hasnt been here for damn long alr), jac@ perth, james, jason ih, jermaine, jiahui, jon@ melb, jo ccm, joe.
ten: go to your sent items -- what does the tenth message say?
samsung doesnt auto-save sent items.
eleven: who's the fourth person who comes up under s?
sheanee.
twelve: who's your network provider?
optus.
thirteen: how many messages are currently in your inbox?
82.
fourteen: what do you have as your background?
me and sis in a teacup at hk disneyland.
fifteen: who's the second person who comes up under r?
raymond.
sixteen: who do you have on speed dial three?
mom.
seventeen: if you're on pay as you go, how much credit do you have?
last i checked - AUD 23.50.
eighteen: who's the first person who comes up under c?
cal bro.
nineteen: how many bars of signal do you currently have?
5, 6? full.
twenty: what do you have as your main ringtone?
"touch the sky" by kayne west.
//edit.
Wah lao eh* sibei** gei gao***. But if you want to be gei gao, I can be fuckin' gei gao too.
* Translates to be 'what the hell man'.
** Translates to be 'super' or 'to the max'.
*** gei gao (Hokkien) dialect for being calculative. Normally to do with $$.
Everything translates to become, "What the hell man. You are super calculative!"
It's almost like:
X: Okay, since you're using your card, I'll pay you back for my half. [...] 24bucks ya?
Y: [Fuck you!] 24.50! Give me my [measly] fucking 50cents!!!!!!
Ahh, good times.
Loves it QM iLecture
♥ there's not a place
that we cant reach
that we cant reach
me is not very strong.
So it was you all along.
AM 12:34 enalyze that * happiness is, a walk down memory lane.
• i know..how self-destructive am i
gabe
AM 12:34
• do not fall !
enalyze that * happiness is, a walk down memory lane.
AM 12:35
• haha
AM 12:35
• i try!
AM 12:35
• the wall i took 2 years to painstakingly build up..he just made it all crumble with a 3hr chat
gabe
AM 12:36
• i can rebuild ur wall ... im an engineer !
What would we do without good friends like these? haha.
Peace tonight? Hopefully I can fall asleep. And I think I can start trying now - the neighbours' loud-ass squabble has ceased.
Loves it Last Summer in Rio
♥ there's not a place
that we cant reach
that we cant reach
how time can change everything.
Whilst getting Gavin to drool over Rain (like I do), I made him watch this. FUCK I WILL MARRY THE NEXT GUY I SEE DANCING LIKE THIS IN A CLUB OR WHEREVER OKAY. Ok, check out the last bit around 4: 36 mins or sth. HOT.
Loves it This:
//edit.
On the topic of how time changes everything, i was bored and came across this survey thingy I did in 2003. And now that I'm bored again, I shall re-do it. Let's see how different I am; reply next to (//) indicates contemporary answer. ;) I've shortened the survey it's so fucking long man.
thought you knew me?
Part One
-- Name: ena
-- Birth date: aug 7, 1985
-- Birthplace: KK hospital
-- Current Location: pungg*l, spore. // melbourne, australia.
-- University: n.a.// uni of melbourne.
-- Eye Color: dark brown
-- Hair Color: black/ brown ends// black
-- Height: 160
-- Weight: mmm..42?
-- Righty or Lefty: righty
-- Zodiac Sign: leeeeeo
Part Three
-- Your most overused phrase: "what the fu*k?!"// "f*ck that sh*t!!" and "hey?" (sonz dont make me slap myself! haha.)
-- Your thoughts first waking up: "ARGH!!!"// still "ARGH!!!" or nowadays, "ahh gotta study again..when will this end!"
-- Your best physical feature: mmmm...this is hard. eyes?// same, eyes.
-- Your bedtime: left hand of 12..round 1130.// 2am.
-- Your most missed memory: with him. they're never gonna happen again...// chilling with all my villians at home. cj time. PE class + mass run fo'sure!!
Part Four
-- Pepsi or Coke: pepsi [twist?]// COKE anyday.
-- McDonald's or Burger King: bk// macs. hungry jacks (aussie's bk) is SICK.
-- Single or group dates: uhm..depends.// group. actually double. heh.
-- Adidas or Nike: adidas rocks my world. grinns*// still so.
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Netea: lipton iced tea.
-- Chocolate or vanilla: choccc
-- Cappuccino or coffee: neither..dont dig coffee.// gotsta be latte!! hazelnut latte!
Part Five
-- Smoke: not anymore.// no more no more.
-- Cuss: all the time. =P
-- Sing: yeeps
-- Take a shower everyday: like duh.
-- Have a crush(es): mmmmmm// on RAIN.
-- Do you think you've been in love: pondersss*// maybe?
-- Want to go to college: next.// im there.
-- Like(d) high school: it was ok.
-- Want to get married: maybe// ya DUH. to RAIN!!
-- do you believe in yourself: 1/2 the time.// more or less.
-- Get motion sickness: not always..but when i do..its the worse ever man.
-- Think you're attractive: nopee.
-- Think you're a health freak: hell no!
-- Get along with your parent(s): mm..im fine with em both. jus better with my dad.// much better since i fled the country.
-- Like thunderstorms: sometimes.// not really. i miss you during thunderstorms.
-- Play an instrument: yeah.
Part Seven
Ever...
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing: yeah. strip murderer. haha. [no, no one was even close to being naked!]// mmm..not since then. no wait! i did! just a few months back. hahahaha.
-- If so, was it mixed company: yes i guess u can say so. i was the only girl!// yeah.
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: like once or twice..ooh..the memory is blurring..yeah, i was THAT wasted.// all the time. hahaha.
-- Been caught "doing something": no
-- Been called a tease: nopee.// all the time. why?
-- Gotten beaten up: not once.
-- Shoplifted: no..i was only ever an 'accomplice'.// still no.
-- Changed who you were to fit in: nope.// never did, never will.
Part Nine
In a boy...
-- Best eye color?: brown. light brown.
-- Best hair color?: black/brown/dirty blonde.
-- Short or long hair: short..spikeeeeey!// i have a thing for guys with messy mops now. ala RAIN! but it dont matter if they dont have hair, cos i have a weakness for hotties in hoodies. x)
-- Height: 170 and above.// tall enough.
-- Best weight: i like scrawny guys. haha.// hah, i still do!
-- Best articles of clothing: whatever looks best on him.// HOODIE!
-- Best first date location: the beach?// i dont know, i dont date much.
♥ there's not a place
that we cant reach
that we cant reach
swimming for my life.
Myer's isn't open, damnit. I thought it was Thurs late-night shopping? Pissing me off man. But anyways that means I'll have to go tmr arvo, which = more time to shop! Ahaha evil pleasures of life. Note that this temporarily time-out is really essential for my well-being, it's akin to taking a breath after swimming for hours. You know, how you swim swim swim, take a breath, swim swim swim some more? Ya, today and tomorrow is my 'breath'! Afterwhich, I have to continue swimming (read: working) for my life...
Anyways I forgot to mention that whilst in MC, I stopped by Kookai. And love is, a navy blue kookai dress. I want, I want it for my birthday. :( And babies, no matter what I'm doing on my bday, it is DRESS DAY for the girls (that includes all female-gendered chicas like charpa, hweng, cel, etc, etc). Thank you very much for your undivided attention, bye.
Loves it Jay Chou - Fen Lie
♥ there's not a place
that we cant reach
that we cant reach
braindead.
Aha! Triumph over evil exam. One down, one more to go. I guess the second one is the lesser of my worries, though I am fairly weak at Q-fucking-M. Anyways to celebrate the death of my brain, I stopped over at Melb Central. HAHAHA, how convenient you must be thinking. And guess what's more convenient? I conveniently stopped by Valley Girl, Diva and Sportsgirl. And the 100bucks I withdrew this morning is quite nearly gone...and I'm going to Myers after dinner! Damn, gottsta love Thursday late-night shopping man. Though I would quite rather be in Sg, sweating and shopping with my lovelies..sob sob. It is sale period here too btw!! Man, I couldn't resist those glittering accessories before me eyes; I ended up leaving MC an hour later, emerging proud with a new pokka-dot top (I can hear Sick Du saying 'pokkipokkadotty' or whatever shit he made up =\) a new gold necklace new gold earrings new necklace and new blue-gold earrings. Yes, my obsession with gold has evidently not quite subsided. I also tried to refrain from listening to music the past few days so nothing would get stuck in my head during today's exam, but "Your Love is King" and "Promiscuous Girl" nevertheless managed to fit themselves in my head. I couldn't even hear myself think; I'm beginning to believe I didn't have enough time because the lyrics were mixed up with my knowledge and separating the two takes time.
Anyways, Eric is on his way home now :(. And Sonz left yest :((. Everyone's leaving my side! Friendship is so important to me which is why despite having an exam today, I went out for dinner both on Tues and Wed. Last night's took a grand total of 3 hours, which greatly depleted my last-min revision time but was nonetheless fun. Pictures are in order, but don't cringe - it's only a very tired me you see.
'You go your way, I'll go mine.' Last time this year you'll see a pic of four of us together.
Did I mention we went for Korean, and that it was awesome?
Kim Chi broth..super sour and spicy.
I don't really like chicken, but this is the best chicken I've had here. I kid you not.
Not as good as it may look.
An Hyong Ha Seh Yo! (However you may spell that.)
Don't you reckon he seriously looks like the Korean dude in the poster? We got a star in the making!
All together now.
Quote of the night last night comes from Sharon: "Beef is not seafood?" To which we rolled our eyes and replied, "But cows swim!"
And my brain is so 'stoned' I can't even multitask. Don't talk to me all at once, people on MSN!!!!
Loves it Rogue Traders - Voodoo Child
♥ there's not a place
that we cant reach
that we cant reach
from this moment.
292 hours
17550 minutes
1053017 seconds
Until I am back home!!!!!
[Alternative version:
It is 12 days, 4 hours, 30 minutes and 15 seconds until Sunday, June 25, 2006 at 6:10:00 PM (Melbourne time).]
Prepare those dancing shoes, cos Ena's gonna take you partying til the sun comes up!!!! :)
//edit.
Je ne sais quoi - Turn on, Tune in, and Drop out! says:
PM 02:40
• dinner, surely a good meal can be arranged...tea?? only the best for me with my cane and my bowler hat and brit' ish accent
PM 02:40
• dearie me
PM 02:40
• hahaha!
Why does everyone associate tea with the British? Everyone does it automatically it's not funny!! And you gotta miss my evil twin.
♥ there's not a place
that we cant reach
that we cant reach
take me downtown...
...it's where the people rock.
I tell you, ads fail me. When they advertise trying to get me to buy the latest Rogue Traders CD, I instead open 'Limewire' and do what smart kids do - 'preview' music. If I like it enough, I might buy it. Otherwise I say, just enjoy the music that is of a pretty decent quality. ;)
Check out RT's "Voodoo Child", "Way to Go" or "Watching You". I suggest 'sampling' one and see if you like that kind of music; I kinda do - kinda edgy but not too much. Easier on the ears.
Drive fast, don't crash, make your money, make it last
Hang tight, kick back, prepare yourself for the attack -
Buy low, sell high, take your pills, tell your lies
Loves it Rogue Traders - Watching You
♥ there's not a place
that we cant reach
that we cant reach
put a smile on my face.
This is possibly the first time I have smiled in days. I got a message from Jared on facebook and it was just funny. Jared never fails to crack me up; gosh I miss IH [1st Sem] 2005 sooo much.
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Everyone's who's left Sg is already home. Damnit, I'm the last one standing. In this case it's not that good. I'm hungry, cold, lonely and stuck with reading about friendships and agression.
P.S. Did you know that one can be agressive without causing others physical harm? You are considered agressive if you spread rumours, gossip about others. This is because you still cause harm, only not physically. Kids, this is known as relational agression. Research has shown that girls are more likely than boys to be exposed to relational agression i.e. girls are more bitchy. Yes, you've guessed it but now you know it. Similar studies have also found that agression has negative impacts on social-cognitive development (e.g. girl who was bitched about might turn psycho). Psychology I reckon, is really about proving to you that what you've always knew is true. What's the point, what's the point. This week, Monday Blues will extend til end of week, and only after Thurs will I recover slightly from shock and trauma. Stay tuned for more updates on mental health of Ena.
Loves it Ellen DeGeneres Show
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whatthefog?
Yesterday, it was a little foggy.
But the sun came up and it was all good again.
Today, it was fucking foggy, and not to mention, cold. This is crazy, I feel like I'm in Genting what with the fog and all. You can't even see the top of several buildings and by that, I mean the Melb Central dome was invisible for a bit this morning.
It's not my dirty windows.
At this rate, we might as well have snow to top it off right? I mean, if it wants to get this cold, might as well be cold enough for snow. Yes, I've learnt the value of not being 'good-enough'; if you can't be the best, why settle for anything less?
Double vision. Welcome to my reality.
Loves it The White Stripes - 7 Nation Army
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stress, stress, baby.
Now we can sing the title to the tune of "Ice, ice baby". STRESS people STRESS. I am stressed. I am tres stressed. I spent the entire day trying to finsh at least 3 lects but to my dismay, I only managed to finish one. Stupid lecturers are such liars. They put so little in the lect notes and make you think, "Ahh, nothing much to worry about." where in actual fact there's LOADS loads LOADS to cover inside the textbook. AHH! And I turned on the TV, and The Amazing Race is on. Then i think - "It's Thursday already?". Yes, my concept of space and time is hereby messed up. But not enough to make me realise that I have less than a week to cover 24 lects. How, how, how! ARGHHHHH I'm a lion hear me ROAR. Bitch is cranky; approach.with.caution. AHH dumb sh*t (SPOILER ALERT for people who didn't already know) the Hippies in TAR win anyways. The other 2 dumb guys think they're so goodlooking so smart. What himbos! One of them is even like, "We didn't know the last one (challenge) would be brains - damnit."
Loves it The Amazing Race
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and you call yourself a friend
when you've never for once in this situation put yourself in my shoes at all.
trying to juggle my schoolwork and this whole situation is taking its toll on me - i am visibly distressed. i had to entertain several long distance calls over the past few days just to sort myself and you out. just keep blaming me it makes me feel good. masochistic pleasure - why not? i really wanted to help you out but if this is the attitude you wanna give me then whatever man.
seriously.
Loves it Sterophonics - Maybe Tomorrow
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always better when we're together.
I really needed someone from home to talk to today. Homesick blues and other emotional issues. Thanks for being available Charpa!!! A good 217 mins chat made all the difference for my crappy day. Thanks girlie, for listening to me whine - I'm so glad we updated each other on everything that has happened thus far. Now all we need to do is do everything together once again - don't forget Mambo, MoS, butterfactory, Attica, dress shopping, korean food @ Heeren, movies @ Lido, late night suppers and many cam-whoring sessions. Hang in there - 18 more days!! Whoopee.
And I believe this, was the last time I met you. Freeze the moment and the memory of me there, and defrost it on the 28th of this month. ;)
Loves it Expose - Seasons Change
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Asian values.
After having a "proud-to-be-Asian" convo, I can safely say that I am indeed, proud to be Asian/ Chinese/ Whatever. I don't think I've realised this tendency as much as after having to live in a foreign angmo/ farang/ yang-ren dominated environment for nearly a year and a half. Quite frankly, I cannot wait for the day I leave for good. Enough is enough, you know? And our 'being Asian rocks' convo included talk about how family matters so much. Recently, for whatever odd reason, my emotions have been intensified and I have been feeling down more often. I don't like this phrase I'm going through at all. I just want to go home. 19 days, absolutely can't fucking wait.
"I've realised that my being Asian has made me more protective of my family and their image to everyone else. It's like, of course I want to uphold my own reputation, but the truth of the matter is that at the same time, I am really doing it to protect my family's name. Say, whatever I do will be subject to scrutiny by my relatives and hence, I refrain from doing anything stupid. I don't think some people understand. People talk, no matter what, and I don't ever wanna put my parents in the position of having to explain my actions. People can think what they want to think, but I don't want to be the one to plant any ideas in the first place. Hai, bai ren bu liao." You can blame me all you want, but I'm only doing what I'm doing for my parents. They wouldn't tell me they object whatsoever, but I know they do. We are afterall, a conservative Asian family with 3 girls in the home.
And hey guess what? I can't wait to Mambo! Don't pang seh me ok Ah Da! Make sure everyone turns up...and Fang..you have to come too okay! 28th June, bu jian bu shan. :)
Loves it Go West - Pet Shop Boys
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keep me safe in this crazy world.
Aww I got news yesterday that my cousin is getting engaged tomorrow. How fucking crazy is that?? I mean, apparently he's purchased his new home too. Fuck, and he's 24? I'm gonna be 24 in 3 years and I don't see myself engaged with my own home. Gees, things are so crazy in this world sometimes. Hey, I won't even have a long-term bf I wanna get married to in 3 years. Sad, sad life. Maybe instead of mopping over how sad my life is, I should just go do some work so I can actually be somewhere someday.
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I'm trying to send him an e-card, this is too depressing : "May your marriage be a lifetime of beautiful dreams come true"?? Man, I personally don't believe in Romeos and heroes anymore. And I just decided: everything is my own doing. Why the f did I wanna come to Melb? I'm missing out on so much at home, great fun things I'll never get to experience again - engagements and loads of 21st parties. This is too sad man. Make sure y'all come for my party to cheer me up ok?
Loves it Gnarls Barkley - Crazy
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we're not meant to be winter-time lovers...
...maybe next season, hun. but i'll tell you i am in love with you. yes, you sexy handbag out of the new mongram perfo by Marc Jacobs for LV range you.
the Speedy's pretty hot too.
and i want a black chanel cambon wallet. it's so hot - it's got pink/fuschia lining inside.
ya im brand-whoring but what?? i deserve a break from all the work i did/gonna do, hence gucci.com, chanel.com, louisvuitton.com. hey its nice to dream sometimes. plus daddy saYS that cos he doesnt know what to buy me for my bday, i can choose what i like. hehehehehe. an evil plan is hatching. and im supposed to be looking out for a nice design for my key. ahh im late for dinner!!! more windowshopping later. ;)
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either it didn't save properly or i threw it and 'emptied the recycle bin'. whatever it is, i screwed myself over BIG TIME. only a day left to the 5th of june, only a day more to do final editing for two essays. and one has to be LOST. lost forever in this fucking technological world. oh my god. I THOUGHT I WAS DONE WITH DECADENCE FOR GOOD. no sorry miss, you have to keep your sorry ass at the workdesk and edit it FROM SCRATCH. god i put in so much work into editing its not funny. maybe i should be thankful that i've got at least an unedited copy. oh i don't know. whatever it is, i just want to CRY. i was/ am hungry and i wanted a biscuit, now i've lost all appetite.
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and we can't wait.
My daddy called, and he told me he can't wait for this month to be over, because he's gonna be real busy. And then I said I can't wait for this month to be over, cause I'm gonna be home. Then he replied, "Yeah. You have at least 21 more days?" AWWW my daddy has a countdown! I knew he loved me though he doesn't really show it. Gees. Men. *shakes head*
And I'm addicted...Last night I slept at 3, the whole time I was doing work (since 12.30am) but in the last 30mins before I went to bed, I was going through at least 3 months worth of archives. It's so lame, I was giggling to myself at 3 in the morning. Gotsta loves it!
Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net
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bahbahblacksheep.
okay, i know. what the fuck am i doing here when i should be working doubly hard on my essay right? well so it goes i'm looking at event venues (again!!!). yes, i am nearer and nearer to home. i finally got my ass down to sending enquiries to the places im interested in, and hopefully we'll get some good news and packages. remember, one and all, that ena's bday is now on the 21st of july (21.07)!! why? cos i said so! and cos i turn 21 on the 7th (of Aug, duh) hence it IS meaningful x). i also just looked at new asia bar/ equinox - very impressive but prolly very expensive too. so yeas. if anybody has any good suggestions on locations for just under 50 people, LET ME KNOW ok!! cheers :)
Loves it JJ Lin - Dong Jie
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if only i could find you.
aww fuck. my chest really hurts. like there's this sharp, dull pain everytime i breathe in real hard. mom was like, "pile on the layers!" but yeah, the damage is already done. no wonder they say prevention is better than cure. and once again, life sucks - i feel like sh*t, haven't started on my essay that's due on mon (60%!), haven't started revision, and yours truly is sooo broke. and to add insult ( - more $$ ) to the injury (already empty bank acc), i have to pay rent, phone and electricity bills. well the last has yet to arrive but i know it will within these few days and i really don't want to look at it. no thanks to frolicking in the aircon during summer and warming up with the central heating in winter, i betcha i raked up some pretty hefty bills there. great, great, great. life is just so awesome.
Loves it Case - Missing You
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no you can't stop thinking about her.
i had a fitful sleep, because i was in one of those not-sober-but-not-drunk-enough modes that leaves your head throbbing and a-thinking. i had A dream. another really weird one. puzzled. wells. last night was pretty good actually, we spent a couple of hours sitting at lounge just chilling out and drinking. then tommy got wasted a little. haha, but of course. what's a birthday (or 21st) without alcohol right!
and then when i completely woke up this morning, i looked at the phone and thought, "fuck. it's june already?! all i did was have a little nap between now and then!"
Loves it Rachel Yamagata - Worn Me Down
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